I was doing better, but last week I took about 20 steps backwards, and I'm back to the beginning. Pain at rest, pain while riding, pain while standing. It isn't terrible, in fact, it's not bad at all, but I've been down this road too many times, and any pain is not good.
The question is: what is next? I was only riding 3-4 days per week, no more than 6 hours total at mostly endurance watts. What would happen if I tried to race? Or train so I can get to the level where I can race? If I get over this, will it just be something else? It's been a constant battle for me in my whole athletic history. Build it up. It breaks back down. All along, my body has been saying no no no but my determined brain says yes yes yes. Maybe it is time for that brain to focus on something else. I need to find a balance, but I don't know how. I'm either unmotivated, or I want to be a top level pro. There has never been an in-between for me.
I preach this everyday, that health trumps everything. It's above competition, the bike, everything. Maybe it's time I listen to what I tell others. I think it needs more time. Lots of time.
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That sucks your feeling pain again, Kelly. Like you implied, it's a good reminder that we shouldn't take our health for granted. I hope you feel better soon.
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