Thursday, November 6, 2008

Day 13: This Sucks.

Here I will complain.

Today I am really bored.  For some reason, I am also really tired, dizzy, brain fogged, and generally out of it.  This combination is bad because whenever I try to do something to combat my boredom, my brain fog and tiredness get in the way, so I return to boredom.

I'm trying to study for this dumb CSCS test even though I already studied all this stuff for 4 years straight.  It's not a problem, and I finally scheduled my exam today.  I can't take it until early December, so really, what's the hurry?  

In the mean time... I don't know.  This has been a low volume week for training. Only 10 hours, but I was really dragging during my weight training today.  I'm not sure why I am so tired.  My coach is loading me up on protein, and I've been sleeping a lot.  Maybe it's the whey protein that I'm not handling well.  Or it could be a combination of the whey, training more, and somewhat higher levels of anxiety because I have no real future.

It's weird.  Every other time in my life where I've had a break, there has been a definite end.  Summer break ended with school, but now, there is no definite end.   I've been in a daze for the last 2 weeks, searching for jobs, trying to figure out what to do.  I'm having trouble coherently interacting with people.  The marketing job market isn't being too responsive either.  

I tried to fill out a form to do volunteering, but just as I had filled it all out and submitted it, the server was down.  

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